The inclination to think and the inspiration to write come at very odd times for me. Like when I'm unloading groceries and suddenly drop everything I'm doing, run to my computer, and quickly write an award-winning speech on Moral Revolution.
Today, that odd moment was in the nail salon. So I grabbed my phone and typed all of the following on my notes app. I like to take advantage of the times when I'm able to put the rumblings of my heart into coherent thoughts and my thoughts into meaningful words.
If you're in the same season of life I'm in or if you're facing some similar things, maybe these words will resonate in your heart as well.
I am constantly seeking for the very best in life, the very best God has to offer. Constantly critiquing my own character and habits. Constantly analyzing my growth in Christ. Constantly battling against the flesh in me that is willing to settle, live afraid, play the part of a victim, and make everything about me. I am constantly searching for ways to make my mark on the world for the glory of Christ -- to live an abundant, love-filled life by equipping others to do the same.
In the midst of the chaos and monotony of my everyday life -- in the midst of the real, daily struggles that remind me I'm human -- I must be intentional about resting. I must learn to hide my heart in Christ and resist the urge to take control for myself. The truth is every detail of my life is in the hands of God. And the life I'm searching for is found in him. I have to learn to seek him first, not because of what I can gain, but because of who he is. I've heard it said recently, "Seek his face, not his hands."
He knows my heart. He knows my thoughts before I even think them. He sees what I can't, and it doesn't matter that I can't as long as I'm choosing to see him. Jesus is my source, life, joy, hope, love, purpose, peace, radiance, treasure, fulfillment, and so much more. He keeps me, he rejoices over me, he leads me. He is all I need. I am becoming more and more convinced of that.
I'll never arrive until I get to heaven. And maybe not even then. I'm dependent on him. On his grace. To think I can get to a place where I don't need his grace is pride. And I refuse to live in pride. I'm a raw, real human. God knows that. He feels what I feel. He hurts when I hurt. He rejoices as I joy in him. My passions and pains and frustrations with myself and the world are very relevant and important to him.
There is meaning in my life. I am an unfinished masterpiece, and he is perfecting me. He's making me more like him. And just as he tells me to enjoy the journey, to enjoy the process of being made, he also enjoys the process of making. My God is so incredibly patient, and his words sustain me. I rest in him.
I want you all to know that regardless of what your life might look like at the moment, regardless of the things that are holding you back, regardless of the excuses you might be making or the pain you might be enduring, God wants you to THRIVE! He wants you to know his love and rest in him. He wants to deliver you from your fear and give you an indestructible joy. My prayer for you is that God would grant you the strength to step out in faith, believe what his word says about you, and take action on every promise he's made. The most powerful thing I'll ever experience is when God reveals to me that HE LOVES ME. That revelation doesn't come from people telling me. It comes from hearing him confirm it. That is the greatest treasure, the most freeing truth, and the deadliest weapon. Know that he loves you and ask him to show you so you can enter into that rest and deep fulfillment of walking with him.
, by Mattanah DeWitt